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Monday, August 9th, 2004
2:26 pm	apartment!!! So it's offical, I'm moving in with Becky! Her parents totaly rocked that shit and drove up to Mass twice once to find listings and a second time to veiw them. Between the two trip smade I'm guessing numerous phone calls and scored big! A woman is renting the top floor of her 3 story old victorian, she turns out to be a cousin of a woman Becky's parents went to college with and their grandmother lived and tought in were else...Oswego half her life. So it's all very interesting. The apparment itself almost sounds too good to be ture but since her parents were there to check it out I'm cofortable asumming I'm going to be very happy their. As it is there are 5 rooms 1 bed 1 bath, kithchen, living room, and a turrit room. Becky and I have not finalized on who will be sleeping where...I'm happy letting her have the big bed room, after all it was her and her paprent determination that go us the place. It's up in the air if the "living room" or the turrit room will be used as the other sleeping place....The turrit room is small but there is little privacy sleeping in the room were the main door accesses is. I'm going to be moving in about 5 days b4 she will but I'm not gonna take over...I don't have much to take over with, as of right now she's probably brining half the furniture. My mom cried when I told her, she was getting really worried if i would have any place to stay. I had been calling the cat lady almost every day about her room and she wasn't getting back to me. Now mom is going thru evry thing in the house, old boxes of dishes and kitchen wear, making lists of furniture in the house I could take if need be things like that. My last day of work is wednesday night at the Pryun House's last concert. I can move into the new appartment on the 15 and I start my new job on Monday so I have a few days to pack and make final arragements. I'm so excited but starting to get nervous too... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 4th, 2004
2:50 pm	I have crossed over to the dark side...I now own a ...gasp...cell phone...and...a lap top. I have joined the self important, pretenious crowd that I have so scorned their exicitance up to this point. Seriously it was decided that with my unstable new life style of bouncing around the country where ever I can find work these items would prove usefull. My father unexpecdly chipped in to add me to his alredy existing plan, and now we have a fmaily plan. My grand mother gave me some money when I graduated so it's going to part of the computer, my mom chipped in for the service plan on the thing for when I enevitably trow it out of frustration and it needs to be fixed. And since I've done nothing but work two jobs all summer I actually have money to pay for the reest of it. I was going to pay for everything my self and make an attemt at becoming self-reliant...you know a real grown up. But since both my parents offred I am not going to look a gift horse in the mouth and I am happily taking their help for now. Some day I will have to do this on my own but for now making what I am still greatfull for the help. I am once again using the computer at work and actually have to go do some things to be helpful so i'm off...and yes i know i chose to use big words that i don't know how to spell and that any one who reads this will get a headach trying to figure out what i've said, but oh well...once again am i too lazy to use spell check (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 28th, 2004
10:42 pm	GOOD BYE NY HELLO MA :) I GOT A JOB!!!! I'm so excited I'm going to work in Beverly MA as a wig intern. And guess who is going to be there? Becky!!!!! We are going to tear up the town! Though I just heard from her that housing is kind of screwed up but I don't even care I will find something that will work and I will have some kind of roof over my head. This job had the best to offer outside of the fact that becky was gonna be there, the pay is still better even with $100 taken out a week for housing, the location is amazing, and I will be training under a broadway professional. I've only talked to these people on the phone but they all seem really nice.I'm nervous cause this is my frist job out there in the real worl of the theatre. I hope that I take to it and maybe I'll have some kind of future in this. I whish I could find my passion, but for now I'm just so thrilled to quit Jo-Anns!!! I'm also glad to be getting out of the house. I love mom, but she's starting to wear on my nerves. She very controlling over me getting a job, asks a million questions and wants to pick it out for me I swear. She nervous about me getting my housing setteled. Becky says that we're either gonna live with families or we can try to find an appartment.I was supposed to talk to the housing people myself today but when I was transferred to them I got the machine and left a message cause I had to go to work. This is not the ideal situation, I would love to live with Becky, but trying to find an appartment in two weeks is gonna suck. I am still so excited though and can't wait to start packing, which i need to do now seeing how i have hardly any time betwen jobs to do so otherwise. I have tomorrow off so I'm going to be busy starting to get ready. Whish me luck! :) (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 23rd, 2004
4:06 pm	job prospects so i never did get back to this thing to post anything of much interest. i am still mostly just working but find myself happy these days in doing so, well except for when i work a double day, at that point i can't stand freakin' jo-anns. happily tho it looks like i will not be stuck there this fall. I have been contacted by 4 out of the 8 people i sent out my information to about jobs in the theatre...all of them look like strong posiblities that they want me so i get to pick and chose now...which means which one will give me more money/housing/bennifits...ie health insurance...one place offers a free mebership to the YMCA wich is good because my current one ends at the end of the month...but it is not ideal..none of them are ideal though...any starting position in the thaetre pays squat and i'm getting pretty comfy making after taxes around $300 a week, having to cut that back by at least half to a thrid is going to suck, and i'll probably be totaling 50 hours at just the one job so it would be nearly impossible to get another job. I holding out kinda for this one postion i applied for in florida which had free housing and paid mor around 400 a week...but i applied kinda late to it so i don't know if i will be considered. mom and i had a quick conversation today about health insurance and some plan run by NYS that costs something like 110 a month compared to the 350 a month that it would cost to stay under the coverage i have now. She said she would be willing to add that to house hold expenses for a little while till i can "get a real job". she does support the whole theatre carrer paath at least and "just wants me to be happy" but "internships aren't real jobs". i have yet to tell her about the two new offres i got today but i think she will be as thrilled as i am. she was so thrilled when the guy from rocheter, who was the frist to contact me, called on wednessday that she woke me up at 10am to talk to him. Wednessday is the one day during the week i don't have to get up early to go to the house because i work the concert at night instead. thankfully the initall conversation went well, even in my altered half awake state, and i had a better one the next day with the guy who would ultimatly hire me. i told mom if any one else called while i was sleeping to please inform them i was unvailable but would soon call them back and then feel free to wake me up. I don't mind getting up to do thing that have to get done, but phones shoved at me while i can still hear the music playing in my dreams is not cool. i am once again wrighting this at my job because i find this the only time i'm even near a computer these days. sadly i have to leave this job now, and cram a ham sandwhich down my through as i drive to my next job. i managed to finagel my way out of working jo-anns tomorrow so i can attened the free performance of taming of the shrew that's showing at the house. it turns out that this finagleing is much apperciated by my director because our custodian is out of town for the weekend so she was in need of assitance. i whish she had told me of this sooner, but now i don't feel guilty about getting out of my other job :) well i'm off to speed down the northway at ungodly mphs to arrive just in time to....stand at the guest service counter ;p (Comment on this)
Friday, July 9th, 2004
3:22 pm	I am at work right now and should not be doing this but hell it seems as though I'm always at work these days. At least I'm at the job I love right now and not my crappy job that sucks up all my nights and weekends. If the rest of my life was like this summer I think I could deal one job I love one that pays the bills...I know what bills you're living at home w/your parents...lets just say my obssion has switched from drinking back to the old stand by of clothes and shoes. More than one person today has commented on my shoes matching my shirt...hahaha. with this live day to day i've fallen back into a new comfy pattern but all i see ahead of me is the fall when the job I love is gone. If i'm still in the area i can always pop back in for a visit but this old house feels like home and I will miss it terribly....with that said i really should go...the guilt is getting to me and I've hardly scratched the surface of what I want to post. I'll get home from job #2 around 10 so if i'm not dead I will fill in some of the blanks of what I've been up to this summer...not a whole lot other than work but some of it is interesting...like all the old men who keep hitting on me...more latter...ttfn p.s. fuck spell check (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 10th, 2004
12:45 pm	2 days off from work... ...and i don't know what to do with my self...have yet to get motivated to call and check up on anyone about my letters or jobs or anything. i feel like going shopping...but have no money...i have to wait till next friday for my pay check...i hate lag pay rolls...this is a lame post.. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 8th, 2004
11:50 pm	drinkin' margaritas, bangin' senoritas so between living at my crappy job and my internet being flakey i have not posted in a while. summer is in full swing and it was 90 today. the ac at my store is lame and i was sweating all day and stuck dealing with grumpy customers at the guest service counter. so a much needed margarita was had with julie at chilies...along with some quesadillas, which i didn't need but were very yummy. it's up in the air still if i will beable to work at the pruyn house. hopefully i will finally know by the end of the week. i'm not holding my brath and am looking into jobs for the fall. right now i'm waiting for joe and kitty to write me letters of recomendation. kitty said she can have something for me by the end of the week, no word from joe though and i can't wit forever. i have tomorrow off and will do some calling around and get things in order hopefully. the only othe some what social thing i've done lately was go to harry potter on sunday. the whole family went together and every one enjoyed, which was nice because the last movie we saw together in theaters was lotrtt and mom hatted all the fight scens in it. she fall asleep for a min or two but we went to a late showing after i got out of work so i was impressed she was up way past her bed time ;) my car is being a pain again...need to take it back in and looked at...again (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 24th, 2004
7:37 pm	Six Flags So I got some color for once, it's been like 7 years since I had a real tan. most of my color is slightly pink but it doesn't hurt and I don't think will peal. Yay for sun! Though I was sweating my ass off all day, I should have listened to Julie when she said I was crazy for wearing jeans. I had a really great time all day. I didn't really notice most of the day that I had been up since 5:15. We hit the road closer to 6:30 rather than 6 because carrie was running a little late. But we made great time and got there just a little after they opened at 10. We had the oddest luck all day and hardly waited in any lines. Tho we would walk past rides with lines with over an hour wait that we had already been on. There was no drama, no fighting, no whining. The rides back and forth were a blast tho I felt bad for Matt A. He had allergies all day but never complained and drove all the way back after getting a second wind. He also was they only guy with three girls, who were apparently very sexually repressed because half of the conversations that day kept reverting back to sex. There also was a somewhat disturbing undertone that day of death. It kept coming up in conversations between road kill and the fat guy who died at Six Flags New England recently. The worst though was when we almost became a part of a horrible accedint. I'm not sure how many cars were involved but a large chunk of one of the cars was in the middle of the lane we were trying to drive in. Fortunately for us, both of the cars in front of us breaked with out hitting it, and we breaked with out hitting them. But when I looked over to the other side of the road to see were the chunk had come from I saw in the shoulder four or five cars pulled over.There was a group of people standing around a girl laing in the road with one person giving her CPR. There were no rescue personal on the scene yet and things didn't look good. But no one in the car new what to do, and we saw a cop racing to the scene, so we simply picked up the plate of browines that had fallen to the floor with the sudden stop and continued on with normal conversation. It was only breifly mentioned that we were glad the car had breaked and our driver quickly assured us he knew we were going to stop in time. I latter found my self, in a short moment of quiet in the car, wanting to say a prayer for the girl and for our continued safety. But half way through I couldn't think of anyone to say it to. I have no god or gods or anything set in my mind to give me a sense of saftey at a moment like that and I didn't know what to do. For a brief moment I felt so lost, and then some song or other of Julie's came on the cd player and we started up again singing along. I was bouncing around the car and laughing and didn't think of the accident until I was almost home. I decided not to tell mom about it cause she worries every time I take a car trip like that and I didn't want to freak her out. Today I haven't thought much or done much all day. I woke up around noon to another thunder storm and just sat around. The tv and my mom have been my companions along with the rain. I need to get off my butt and do some stuff this week. I need to call my boss at the fabric store and talk about working a few night shifts and weekends. I need to take my car in to be inpecteded and hopefully it won't cost an arm and a leg to fix the five things that all went wrong when I hit my last pot hole : the radio, the automatic doors, the dome light, the horn, and the lights that tell me things like seat belts not on and check engine. Other wise I just want to start some good habits back up like exercising and eating healthy. I have no set plans yet for fun stuff to do this summer besides going to old songs. There are some ideas bouncing around but nothing's set and I'm doubtful they will come to fruition. However, I'm starting to look for job/school options for the fall. I've found a few things but I can't put in for them with out letters of recomendation so I've asked Joe for ne and will ask Kitty soon. I know I need to get on it more but i'm still kinda unwinding, but I know I need to not get into a lazy pattern for the summer or I will never break it. If i was just going back to school it would be no big deal but my summers are normally so slow paced and I don't think I can live my whole life at that kind of a pace. I think I need to relax some and not worry so much about my future but I know I don't want to be in the same place I am now 5 years from now and maybe even a year from now. We shall see... Current Mood: numb (Comment on this)
Friday, May 21st, 2004
10:17 pm	I've been home a week and I'm falling back into the comfort zone that is home. Graduation was so anti-climatic, I don't feel as though i got to say a real good bye to any one except for Becky who stopped by my doorm as my family and I were lodaing up the cars. Even that was rushed but I almost cried I thought it was so sweet of her. It's odd how quickly you can be come freinds with some one and then how quickly they leave. She's off finding herself and something to do with her life in Maine this summer and for now I'm settling on safety. She and I did some crazy fun memorable stuff these last few months. I will always remember stalking the band and bridge street run. These are things I could never have pictured my self doing four years ago. I did a lot this semester that may have seemed out of my normal character but loved so much I would never want to take it back. I enjoyed the changes I made, I can always settle back down into the boring girl who stayed in every weekend watching movies some day. But i really made some progress coming out of my shell and dealing with people and being social. My movie days I will also remember fondly; rainny/sonwey days in the dorms making apple sauce or a collage or magnetts; Mass orders of chinesse food or a pizza. A good night in will always be needed for unwinding and reflecting. I was planning on a night in for this evening but took a detor with my brother to go out and see Shrek 2. It was enjoyable but crazy expensive, fucking $18 for 2 tickets which i ened up paying for because andrew got us a "snack deal" it was a med popcorn, 2 med sodas, and "free" candy w/that...$13. I should have told him to just get some popcorn...i've been trying to be good and eat well and have failed all week, and the stupid soda made me have to pee half way through the movie. The rest of my week was fairly un-eventful untill last night. I've been trying to get un-pcked, and settled. so I've been running errands and going to job interviews. Last night Julie P. got back in town and we went out for karaokie. I had a good time but missed Colemans hard core. Julie sang I Touch My Self and Immdeatly I thought of Becky and whished she could come and hang here some time. I sang Sin Wagon....hehehe... as becky once said "the only name next to that song is The Dixie Chicks so as far as I'm concened it's up for grabs" I butchered my way through a few other songs including Livin' on a Prayer w/Julie. During which the same chessy pics were on the screen that they have at Colemans..tear. I have another week before I start work which is both good and bad. I really need to get working again so I can make money but I'm really glad to have some time off. This semester wasn't exactly my hardest with only 3 classes on two days a week. But I'm still burnt out from the emotional roller coaster I've been on the last year or so. I worry a liitle that some of my drinking and partying this semester was just avoidance. But when I wasn't working on a show I really neded something to do to pull me out of my room and out of my mild depression. It keept me from feeling so isolated some times and gave me a new sense of independance. By the end of it all I think I found a blance between having a good time and a few drinks but staying in control. I was sad that my last night in colemans didn't turn out quite the way I wanted but the other good times I had there out weigh it in the end. I feel as though I will either get the chance to say what I wanted to say latter on or I never felt it was important at heart. That may sound harsh but maybe it's just true. I loved my four years at Oswego, the good the bad and the ugly it was all worth it. I loved my department and the people in it even if it took me a long time to show it and even if I never said it before. I will miss it more than anything, it was the one thing I could count on that seemed to never change, even through all the drama. Drama was to be expected it's the freakin' theatre after all. I'm proud of the work I did there and what it adds to my life. On with life... I'm goin' to six flags on Sunday.... Part of me feels like it's that last thing i need/should be doing. But another part of me dosen't want to stop having fun just because I'm supposed to be doing something with my self and start acting like a grown up. We shall see how it goes...till then I will try to remain optimistic. Hopefully when Sunday rolls around I will be much more excited...if nothing else the tope of the hill of the nitro will get my spirts lifted high...or I will puke ;) btw...it's summer again so i think i'm gonna try to keep up with this thing. It'll help me keep up with every one... and seeing as how we will not be re-united in the fall like previous years it's more important to me now more than ever. I also get a kick outta reading some of the things I've posted in the past so here we go again oh and fuck spell check tonight...I have a B.A. and still can't spell...who gives a shit Current Mood: complacent (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 25th, 2004
1:53 am	can't sleep Don't know why that's such a surprise, haven't done much the last few days to nesseitate a good nights safe sulmber. it's been a while since i've done anything worth while. i feel like this mostly only when i'm alone at night in bed reflecting before i go to bed. progressivly my nights have been gettin worse and for a while now it seems. my classes are all jokes and i knew that before i went into this semester but it feel like shit now that i'm more than half way thur this semester and havn't done anything. and what's worse is i'm getting away with it even more. i always joke that i never do any thing in my classes and it doesn't matter because i still get a great gpa. but all those semesters of nothing are bulidin up to what feels like either g reat retribution where krama finally gets it's last laugh and i really am screwed. OR worse i get away with this for the rest of my life and i never end up doing anything and i never break this awful pattern i have created for myself and i will inevitably just skate through my life with nothing to show for it no one will care and it all meant nothing and i'm dead. i keep feeling like i'm an awful person who shuts every one out of my life in one way ot another. i keep looking back at all the people i used to be friends with freshmen year and all the stupid reasons i don't speak to any of them any more. one thing after another and i just gave up trying or careing about these people and being their friend. it makes me feel ungreatful in some way because who am i to be so choosie in who my freinds are. what makes me so great that i can't forgive somethings and just move on. if it were just one or two people with just very spesific reasons it would be one thing but there used to be a group and now i hardly talk to one of thoes girls anymore. i love some of the new people i've meet sinc ea nd have good times with them but it's still not the same. maybe i'm with these people becaue we all have one thing in common but really it's just our crazy ass job that we all do. other than that we're all night and day from each other. but it can't just be that i didn't have things in common with the people i don't talk to any more i know there was some thing there with each of them. i can't even remeber the last time i wrote in this journal or what the entry was about and now i'm just complaing . it's just so much that's been buliding up inside me and no matter how much i bitch and complain it doesn't go away. some things i know i've been holding on to for way too long but every thing i do to try to get past it all come back as soon as somehting new comes along. i know what i really need to do is just write my god damn thesis and make a plan that goes as far as this summer after graduation and i'd probaly start to feel better. but for some reason i've been fighting it year. there are some good things here that i don't want to let go of because it took me so long to finally feel that way about them. it seems too soon to leave now that i finally belong and then there are the other places that i can't even stand to be because just looking at them stil makes me want to cry. it would have been so easy if i had never tried to make it in my department or if i had never opened up to anyone. i've been so harsh so many times in saying that others never opened up too me and thats why they never new the real me but maybe it's the other way around and i never opened up to them all the way eother and just conviced my slef that i had. hell some times i wonder if i'm veer fully open and honest with my slef. i'm always such a mess of massive contardictions and maybe that's my refusal of my self to kknow my self and my true wants and needs(who the fuck do i think i am now freud...i do want a penis, but not so i can be a man but because my hormones are acting up again...bad girls!) ahhhh this is getting weired i need to sto p and go to bed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 6th, 2003
9:53 pm	over a week w/out lj Damn an I glad to know I'm not totally addicted to this site as I thought I was becoming. I was checking up on other people some times sixs times a day. I'm glad to have been busy and not so bored as to want to this week. Though it probably more my lazyness combined with being sick that keept me from hooking up my computer when I moved in and ultimatly this is what keept me off-line. I have survived my frist week and I guess this is cause for celebration. Though my persitant coughing fits are keeping me from running around with joy right now. Lets back track a little over a week. (this may be long so feel free to skip but I'm keeping this thing as a record now so might as well be through). I came up Friday with Dad, with both my sationwagon and his van packed full with my crap.( I have too much stuff I know). The drive sucked cause i was not in the mood, not in the mood to go back to school, not in the mood to deal with laborday traffic. We got here just in time to move in durring a thunderstorm. After getting it all the the room, around 4:30, I putzed around while dad watched a special on JRR Tolkine on tv. Then we went to the theater dempartment Alumni whine and cheese partty. Dad had a good time, left fairly shit faced and foud a hotel in Clay. I went out to a bar after with a bunch of people from the department but did not drink, I had job training early in the morning. Traing sucked and I missed half the day at the deparment picnic at Fair Haven State Park. But I had a great time at the part I did get to go to, I have a bunch of pics that need to be developed from the day. Sunday started off great. Julie and I spent much of the day up at Fall Brook and Rice Creek walking the trails and running away from snakes. Well, ok, it was mostly me running and screaming. SNAKE!!! became the running joke of the day. Much merryment was had, eating black berries, taking pictures of walls, finding other wild life that was not so scary, and salking men with butterfly nets. The rest of the day kinda sucked thoug. I thought for a while i was just dehidrated from the trails but when my soare throught didn't goway and I started to get chills by the end of the night I figured something was wrong. I've had a low grade fever for half of the week and other fun viral symtoms. Much of the week has been kinda blurry due to this. Classes are good and are getting in swing already. I'm doing my work, though lord know how long thats gonna last and who know if it matters. Fuck I'm gonna graduate this year and I've never had a GPA lower that 3.3 and I only ever di half the work. Maybe thats lame, maybe I'm only screwing my self, maybe that's why I feel kinda empty about this year sometimes. Who knows. I know i'm gonna put my self hard core into my Honors show and the department as a whole. I'm proud of a great deal of the things I've done there so I guess thats what really matters. I had a really good meeting with my director yesterday and am looking forward to the show finally. I also relized the ideas i've been kicking around for the show are some degre of work even if i don't have it all out on paper yet. Yesterday was a really good day as a whole. Julie and I watched bad anime, I't called A sentimental Journy, it reminds us of chiken soup for the soul. Sappy little mini stores about differnt teenage grils and they all have this faceless guy in a flash back sequence. why we watched all four of the episodes she has I don't know- the last ine that we watched tonigt was the worst ;p- (hmmm now i'm blanking when we watched it, hmm everythingis too much of a bulr). Myabe it was Thursday.... Ah yeah it was. Friday welooked at vacation pics, watched half of a DBZ movie and went out to dinner. JUlie, Bree, Andrew, Ryan, and I went to the Global Buffet, very yummy. Ran into Kitty there with her family :). After we hung out with Bree's fur balls and chilled till we went to see the Matrix Reloaded in the union for ONE DOLLAR! So glad to finnaly see it, deffinatly worth a dollar ;). Today was spent setting up my computer and finally getting on-line, and putting up posters and other art work on my walls and doors. I'm almost un-packed but not quite, all my decorations need to get put out. I HAVE TOO MUCH STUFFF!!!! (but I love it all and can't live with out it *looks around room with paranoied gleam in eye*) I'm not spell cehcking this tonight, running out of energy. You all know I can't spell anyways. if you can't figure something out (or just want to make fun of me) comment ;) Current Mood: sick Current Music: Eve6, Open road song (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 27th, 2003
2:40 pm	taking a break from packing A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have your electronics you feel you can cope. Time goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your favourite collection of guitar-driven albums. Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour, individuality. Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life, action-freak spirit, reclusive nature. What kind of girl are you? brought to you by Quizilla Mother Sarawati is one goddess that you're like. Saraswati means "The essence of the self." This Goddess gives knowledge and the wisom and strengh to become what you want to reach. Many students or teachers may worship this goddess in beleif to gain the power of reaching their goal. You want to reach your goal in life and you want the strengh to accomplish a high level of standards to be successful. So much like Saraswati, you may be deeply into music or art and that means you are most like her than the rest of the Goddess What Hindu God or Goddess are you like? brought to you by Quizilla You are Brighid. What Celtic Goddess Are You? brought to you by Quizilla The holly tree, Tinne, suits you the best. Which Celtic Moon Sign Fits Your Personality Best? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
2:35 pm	What Is Your Battle Cry? Yea, verily: Who is that, striding on the mini-mall parking lot! It is Opehila1082, hands clutching an oversized scalpel! And with an ominous roar, her voice cometh: "I'm going to brutalize you until the sun burns out, then make toast!!!" Find out! Enter username: Are you a girl, or a guy ? created by beatings : powered by monkeys (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 26th, 2003
11:33 pm	Good Day, Good Trip, Good Movie Mom and I took a lovely day trip out to Cooperstown. There is an exhibit about the history of high heal shoes. It was the perfect day for a drive on the way out (not so much the way back, big down pour). We stopped to see my friend Sara from school before going to the museum. She's been working at the opera company out there this summer. So we had a nice chat on what's been going on while she got ready to go to work. Then off we went to the museum. The museum was beautiful, with a cafe out side on the terrace that over looked a few acres of grounds and then Glimmer Glass lake. Before we went to see the exhibit we had our lunch there then wandered around mostly focusing on the shoes. Wow they were crazy, some were so high. I enjoyed the History and was most pleased to discover I had retained knowledge from my costume history class to know a good deal of what they were talking about. After the museum we went to town and poked around the little shops. Mom and I got a hat to share and then she got some gardening books at the used book store Sara recomended. the drive home was kinda crazy due to perviously mentioned down pour on the Thurway. Traffic was going 20mph. Tonight I went over to Lishelle's house and she, Ginger and I watched Frieda. I knew very little about a few of her paintings from a Spanish class and nothing about her life. I thought the way she lived her life thur all she had to endure was amazing. I thought it was a great movie, powerful and sad. I also can appreciated her work so much more when before I didn't see very much past her uniabrow. While in one of the gift shops i saw some beautiful wooden burrle puzzle boxes, including one that "looked like it was drawn on with pen" (I know it's a fungus that makes it very rare). Thinking about you again. Feeling kinda like this: Baby Talk To Me Albert: Talk To me, baby, won't you talk to me I don't care what you say Baby, talk to me Must you to be oh so far away from me It seems so wrong this way Talk to me And if you miss me Tell me so Are you lonely Tell me so Say you love me Tell me so Honey, let me know Talk to me Till I press you close to me Then you'll see We won't have to talk at all (Must you to be oh so far away from me, baby) I don't care what you say (Oh, baby talk) Talk to me (Go on, what can you loose, it ain't gonna hurt) And if you miss me (Oooh, Tell him so) Are you lonely (Lady, lady, tell him so) Say you love me (Oooh!) Tell me so (Honey, honey) Let me know Chorus: Talk to me Till I press you close to me Then you'll see We won't have to talk at all Till I press you close to me Then you'll see We won't have to talk at all Talk to me Talk to me Talk to me... Bye Bye Birdie Soundtrack Lyrics (can anyone tell at the end of they day I'm still lonely) Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
Monday, August 25th, 2003
9:06 pm	Good Days :) Sunday was my last day of work. It was a full 8 hour day in the the Home Dec. Department with Stephanie. I really did have a good summer working there. Mom noted that I took an awful lot of time off to go do stuff. While it doesn't feel like that to me right now (it just feels like the summer's over before it began) looking back I did do a lot. I'm grateful for this summer and things I got to do, though I wish I'd spent more of it out doors. My one day at the beach,sand and all, was wonderful. I ended up giving one of the shells I got there to Stephanie. She's really into Native American culture and goes to pow wows all the time, and it turns out that those shells are what they used for wampum.She was amazed how just the sand had smoothed and polished the shell so well. I baked a cake for the people at work and left it there. I should have brought it home though cause it was Ginger's B-day and a cake would have been much appreciated. Instead much drinking ensued, I'm the only one who got near to sloppy drunk but still I believe a good time was had by all. Maybe I'm just painting a rosy picture of the night for myself, or maybe I was too drunk to know what was really going on. Either way, I'm gonna shout out a: Happy Birthday Ginger and Evan! And Shelly Belly you made it through they day, I Love you for that and every thing else you are :). I'm going to The shoe exhibit in Cooperstown with mom finally tomorrow. Then my life gets packed into boxes and bags and shipped off to School :p Yoshimi - "Happy Beauty" What would your Japanese name be? (female) brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood: cranky (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:05 pm	much more to say but am way too hung over Livejournal Mood Ring ophelia1082 is energetic. You've got the energy level of a small yip-yap dog. And, much like those dogs, I hope you get run over by an ice cream truck. Yeah, that's right. I said it. brought to you by interim32. wanna know your livejournal's mood ring color? enter your username and hit the button. Current Mood: lethargic (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 23rd, 2003
3:55 pm	LiveJournal Haiku! Your name: ophelia1082 Your haiku: better mood look up at the sky tonight and see why i've seen some of Username: Created by Grahame (Comment on this)
3:39 pm	I think I have become addicted to shopping. I bought more clothes today and I still have some that I haven't worn yet, but they are winter clothes. I bought a great sweater thats long enough to meet in the middle even with my low ride jeans. I also got a cute corduroy skirt and dark blue pants. I have work today, thank god I can make the money back that I spent. I'm gonna stop shopping for a while and save for school.I feel like such a spoiled brat, but material things do bring me joy sometimes. I think mostly when I'm lonely, I should go see Lishelle. I miss her and the idea that I'm going back to school Friday has finally started to sink in for real. Yucky Current Mood: devious (Comment on this)
Friday, August 22nd, 2003
10:02 pm	This week I tried to update on tuesday but was rushed and my editing attempt was rushed as well. It's been fun and revolves mostly around Wednesday. Julie P. called Monday and asked if I had plans for Wednesday, she wanted to go to Six Flags Great Adventure in N.J. I didn't have work so it was a go :). I tried to go to bed tuesday around 10:30, but ended up awake in bed till past 1am. I was up again at 5:30am to hit the road. Julie wanted to get there when the park opened and we achieved this goal. The ride down was actually a lot of fun. For some reason I was awake and I liked Julie's friends who we went with. Danielle din't talk much but was very nice and was great in the park, she would ride on anything :). We scarfed twizzlers and coke all day and I only had one pet peeve at the end of the day. Four outta the five of us would ride almost every thing in any amusement park; and I understand not liking being left out when your friends what to do a group activity; but if you don't like amusement park rides and find them pointless why would you drive three hours and spend $45 to get in and then not want to go on anything. He tried really hard all day to not drag us down but half the rides had lines that were at least an hour wait and I felt so guilty that he just wanted to wait by himself the whole day.We left earlier than wanted and didn't get on the last ride we wanted cause of said guilt. I really did have a blast though. The first ride I went on was the new Superman ride and after that I didn't think anything could compare but was pleasantly surprised to find another two rides I found equally amazing, The Medusa and The Nitro. i could ride those three all day; my god The Nitro made me cry. It scared me so badly but I loved it any way. It was the last ride of the night(so sad it wasn't the Batman) and we left the park around 9ish. We got home around 1am, I was scared for my life toward the end of the ride home. The guy driving was not a bad driver it was just so late we were all slipping in and out of consciousness. It's really eerie that my mom just told me a kid my brother's age just killed him self driving home the same way from being over tried and falling asleep at the wheel, I'm so grateful we made it home ok. I dragged ass and did nothing yesterday, I didn't even get up till about 1pm. Today I went to a notary public with mom to sign some papers. My mom has to get health care proxy for my uncle, and in case any thing happens to my mom I'm her back up. I feel so bad for my mom sometimes, she has to deal with such depressing stuff all the time. My grandma's and my uncle's health are both failing and they're a lot for her to have to deal with all the time. I feel so bad I hardly know my uncle, It's never been easy to know him, he has Downs, but these last few years I haven't even seen him. The idea that some how I might end up responsible for him is surreal. I can hardly be responsible for myself. I will be back to school soon, my last day of work is Sunday :):( Current Mood: dorky (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 21st, 2003
1:15 am	The moon guided me safely home tonight...have much more to say tomorrow in the afternoon when I finally get up again. Current Mood: exhausted (1 Comment |Comment on this)